Craziness

I can't believe that my husband just dropped this bomb on me last week.

Apparently his job may be in jeopardy. Not because he is incompetent, or because his boss doesn't like the quality of his work. He may be in jeopardy of losing his job because they had to hire a bunch of temp workers, owe the temp company a ton of money and the Architect that is in charge of this job that he is finishing won't pay. She keeps sending back requests for payment because they aren't formatted the way that she wants them, the requests will be corrected and then she sends them back for some other stupid reason.  I don't know what this lady's problem is but she had better get it together and start paying quickly.

I am worried about him losing his job. Not that he doesn't have another job waiting for him if he wants it back in South Florida. Great. But if he loses his job here how does he get back to Florida and get his job back. How do we pay for the things that we need until we can sell the house? How do we save money? What about his Grandma? Where will she go? I think about all of these things all of the time and I still don't know how it will be accomplished.

I just need to trust that everything will work out for the best. Everything happens for a reason. We will just have to wait and see what these reasons are.

When They Were Little

 

They grow up way too fast! I remember the day I took this picture of William. Now he is so big that I don’t need to help him with too much any more.

Richard! This was the beginning of First Grade. He is getting way too big too. Now he is laying on beds of nails! OuCH!

Serenity First Grade!

and Fourth Grade! In first grade she wouldn’t even go near the diving board. Now she is doing front tucks off of it.

  Destiny, Third Grade and Sixth Grade!

Highly Qualified; Cannot Get Hired.

Forget getting hired, I would settle for the chance to interview. I don’t see why even when I have all the exact credentials that a company is looking for that I cannot even get an interview. I have applied, to many, many companies with not even a call back. I have revamped my resume to include all the key words that are very important to just pass through the purging system. Apparently I need to update my resume some more.

I have a multitude of skills. These include Microsoft Word, Excel, Power Point and Outlook. I can use Photoshop fairly well and am still learning the ins and outs of the program. I am a very competent individual who is capable of figuring out how to get something to work even when I don’t know exactly how something works. I have strong filing skills, I am a people person and am highly organized.  I have been in the field I am looking for employment in for three to five years. Unfortunately, they are not consecutive years. In between the employment in the industry I am looking for I have either been unemployed or worked in different fields.

Now that I have covered not getting an interview and my skill set, let me dive into the actual interview. Occasionally I will get an interview. I show up dressed professionally, clean and put together. Then I stumble through the interview. If I don’t stumble through I still don’t get a call back. I know that there are other candidates that may have stronger skill sets than myself but there are also people who are not nearly as qualified as myself and they get the positions that I am applying for. So what gives? I think I know. People are afraid to hire an overweight individual. They are afraid that I will hurt their company’s image. They are afraid to be around me. I must make them sick. Because I am not active, at least that is what they believe. Then there is the fact that I have four kids. We can’t hire a mom. She is going to have to take off all of the time. Um hello! I know how to schedule appointments for my kids around my schedule for my job. If I can’t get an appointment for after I am off I do have other people who can help with the kids.

This is so damn frustrating. What would happen if I was a single mom? I would need the job to keep a roof over my kids heads. Well, same thing. Just because I have a husband who works his butt off trying to keep us afloat, doesn’t mean that I don’t need employment. The fact that I am looking for employment after three years of being unemployed means that I need the job I am applying for. I just wish that I someone would hire me already. And not just making minimum wage and part time. I can’t put gas in my van for that amount of money. What more do I have to do in order to get a job? I wish I knew.

Moving

We are in a pickle here in North Texas. My husband has a great job with exelent benefits and decent pay. The problem is that things are becoming more and more expensive to purchase and for some reason no one is willing to take a chance on an out of work house wife who is almost thirty-three years old. If they are willing to take the chance it is a sales job that I don't want. I want to go to work every day and know that whether or not I was as effieceint as I could have been I will still be getting a decent wage at the end of the week. I am becoming more and more restless here in Texas. I have a few friends but no close friends. My parents are here as well as one Aunt. My Mother-in-Law lives about two hours from our home and we see her a few times a year. Problem I am having is that I want to move back to South Florida. We were all so much happier there. The lifestyle was much more laid back and even though I was working full time we did more as a family than we do now. I am trying to find a way to tell my husband that I want to move back and that I want to sell our house and that I am going to go ahead of him with our youngest son while he stays and works and the kids finish the school year, which by the way doesn't start for overe a week.
I have been so depressed lately that I haven't been able to sleep. So I am so tired durring the day that nothing in our house gets done. I so do not know what to do.
If I go ahead of my husband I have to have a job already lined up. He has one as soon as he gets to South Florida. I could take my old job back but there are already three other ladies working in a small office and there is only so much to do even on the busiest of days. That means I need to find a place for my family to live and move all of our stuff down there by myself. A really good paying job would help. Because my husband's checks would still go toward paying all of the bills for our current house until it is sold or rented. And if we rent the house, we have to rely on my dad to take care of stuff that is wrong with the house and get payment so that we don't lose the house until it is sold.
I don't know what to do.
Even writing about it isn't helping me any. I guess I need to talk to my husband. Just not sure how to bring up the subject.
I am ready for this move. Not sure if he is.
Hope so.